As a new mum of nearly 5 months, I now feel able to draw breath, look around me and say 'hey, I think I'm beginning to feel like me again'. I never for a million years thought I'd find the change of becoming a new mum so hard. Perhaps I can put it down to being a super independent 'kind of gal' before, that I found the change so difficult to accept.
Since the birth (which for the record was long but not medically traumatic) I felt unstable like I'd never experienced before. Four years ago I was single and dreaming of meeting my Prince Charming and having a baby yet here I was with both yet feeling scarily out of control.
As time has passed, I've been able to admit to myself and my husband that I've had a serious case of 'baby blues.' I wondered at various points whether it was full blown Post Natal Depression but that thought alone scared the hell out of me and so I settled on the rather softer, kinder self diagnosis of baby blues. The point of the 50 shades is the realisation that there are moments when you feel stuck in the mud with no way out, others when you feel mildly out of body'ish and others when you can have a good old laugh about the various moments of ridiculousness that accompanies having a new little baby.
In my attempt to help pull myself out of the mud when I do find myself stuck, I'm starting to look into various 'feel good' activities and am aiming to blog about them on a weekly basis. If any of my blogs can help other new mums out there then even better!
If you've felt the same way and have any advice for me or anyone reading this blog, please divulge!
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